The first experience I had with an angel is one I probably won’t relate right here and now. It was the most traumatic and basically indescribable. Sadly but righteously, it was with Lucifer. He came to claim me, as was his right at that point in my life. I won’t relate it all here as it is not easy to describe or explain but I’ll try to do that sometime in a post or a video.
But that experience when I was 20 was I suppose the pinnacle experience of my life. The Bible talks about “some saved by fire” (Jude 23), that is certainly true with me. Or like Jesus said of Thomas, “Thomas, because you have seen me, you have believed.” (John 20:29) A lot of things are not as much “by faith” for me because the Lord somehow let me see things so I sometimes feel like Thomas in the Bible. Some people in life-after-death experiences have an angel of God come and take them to heaven. It is such an incredibly wonderful experience that often they really don’t even want to come back to this world. In my case it was the opposite. But more about that at another time.
Fundamentally, categorically, absolutely that changed my life. At that moment when I struggled with every iota of soul and spirit I had within me just to not be taken from my body, I said in my mind, “If this is real, then there’s supposed to be the opposite of this. There is supposed to be a God of Love, a God of Truth and Light.” So I “prayed” at that moment to the God of the Bible to help me not die right then. I put “prayed” in quotation marks there because we so often think of prayer as a subdued religious ceremony, with our eyes closed and our hands folded. My prayer back then was from the deepest place of my existence, with every ounce of meaning I had in me.
I didn’t die and go with the devil to hell then. I couldn’t sleep for 3 days because I didn’t have the faith to sleep. I didn’t know what would happen to me if I went to sleep. But gradually, very gradually some sense of normalcy came back to my life. But it had changed, utterly. Paul, speaking of how God delivers people from Satan said “Who has delivered us from the power of darkness, and has translated us into the Kingdom of His dear Son.” (Colossians 1:13)
For me, I wasn’t even there yet. I heard someone say one time about great sculptors, when they’re going to make a statue, the first just start off with a big chunk of rock. Whack! They knock off one big piece. Whack! There goes another chunk. For me, it took quite a few whacks before I was even ready to become a Christian. First and biggest was just getting me to understand that there is a real, true, spiritual world. Seeing Satan and being drawn out of your body by him for your eternal damnation will do a lot to destroy your unbelief.
But there were other angels. And I think I’m going to try to make some kind of rating system for all this. Angels are not always, not even usually, 10 feet tall with white robes and big wings. I’ve never seen one of those. And some things are supernatural but you don’t see the angels involved although you know they must be there.
Here’s one like that. This event with Lucifer took place in a tiny efficiency apartment near the University of Texas campus. It was so traumatic and all consuming that I remained in something of a condition or state for a few days where the spiritual world was closer to being my real world than this physically one we all usually consider “the real world”.
But a somewhat lesser or minor thing that happened at that time was that one evening, probably 2 days after these huge events, I was in my bathroom. And it filled up with maybe 100 tiny white moths or butterflies. They were very benign and non threatening and I remember at that time that they seemed like angels or that perhaps God had allowed this to happen in the physical to represent what had happened in the spiritual. It says of Jesus, “Then the devil departed from Him and angels came and ministered to Him.” (Matthew 4:11) I didn’t know that verse as I didn’t know any verse in the Bible at that time. But I felt all those little white fluttering insects were symbolic of angels who’d come to be with me after I’d turned from my evil ways and had chosen the God of Abraham rather than the devil.
Bottom line for this first story: it was definitely an angel, just the wrong kind and the wrong one. He’d been allowed by God to come and claim my soul after I’d gone so far away from the truth and the light. As for the little white moths or butterflies, they weren’t angels. But God allowed them there right then to be a symbolic sign of the beginning of my altered spiritual condition.
This kind of stuff must be hard to write about. I’ve met quite a few people who had these kinds of demonic experiences–I’ve had my own–but I don’t recall reading about it much. I’ve always thought, in my own case, that I wouldn’t be what I am today, I wouldn’t have held on this long or this tenaciously if the Lord hadn’t allowed the Devil to “sift me like wheat.” I guess the Lord knows what we can handle. That was all in the beginning of my walk with the Lord, so I guess it’s what some of us need, huh? I don’t know how “edifying” these war stories are, but they’re a part of our testimony. God bless you for sharing it.
Perhaps these things can be a help to others, even to folks who’ve had something like this or are still having it but they are confused and afraid and don’t even understand what is happening to them. Once I knew it was coming from the powers of Darkness, I knew there was supposed to be the other God, the Good God and so by turning to Him and away from the Darkness, that was the beginning of my journey. Probably there are innumerable people who are in somewhat similar situations who need to take it all to God. “Resist the devil and he will flee from you.” James 4:7
Thankyou Mark for sharing this story and sadly Lucifer will try to claim many of God’s children in countless ways, the following is a way all of us can keep Lucifer away and one of my favourite quotes from the Bible comes to mind reading this:
Whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Philippians 4.8. The Bible.
Absolutely. I don’t like to dwell on this experience and I don’t often share it. On the other hand, it’s a testimony and a miracle of God’s mercy. “Some saved by fire.” I Cor. 3:15
Hi Mark, On the contrary: ppl need 2 hear this! It’s a powerful testimony! I really enjoy these kind of testimonies, as they make me feel at ease: cos I have wrestled with some of these evil beings since I became saved more than before. Sometime the enemy tells me “Ah, there’s something wrong with u!” And of course that gets one fearful and even depresses one. But after reading ur story, it made me feel just great! ha!
I find as time goes on I am having more encounters of this kind of nature. But we now have our armor on and the old boy cannot harm a hair on our heads and we have nothing to fear. One day I will write one of my strange face to face encounters. Hopefully it will inspire faith as it did for me! Beside my dad said long ago, when talking on same subject that more and more u are going to have these things happening, demonic activity .–So thank God He did prepare us and we are ready!
blessings
Thank you, Mark. As a little abused boy, I came to find Jesus. Locked in a closet after receiving a beating….Jesus was my friend. Jesus sat down beside me and never left. People often ask, “Why would Jesus allow this to happen to you?” I say it was so that I would become the person I am today. My experience as a little boy being abused and being comforted by Jesus has led me to help bring others to the Christ. If I had not had these experiences, many people would not have heard the message of Christ. Mark,thank you for your work. Understanding Daniel more clearly has led me to be stronger in my faith. You are certainly blessed and God sent. Phillip.
Thank you with all my heart dear brother Mark for all your CLEAR classes of Daniel. I’m really thankful for the simple way you explain and show us the links between the different verses in the Bible. You make these classes and explanations easy to understand and to digest. You should continue to dig the treasures of His Word and share them because some ” brethren ” send us regularly their “classes ” about endtime explanation and it brings confusion in our minds because it has a spiritual influence whether we want it or not. Thank you again and may the Lord keep blessing you with divine undestanding. Paul Newheart
I was being bullied so bad where I live, for my Faith in Jesus Christ, my cross outside my door they hate. I asked God for a sign he was with me, he gave me 4 pure white moths that stayed around my cross for 3 days, so beautiful ✝️🙏💖
Great Testimony from your personal experience! Thanks for sharing. God Bless You!
Need your prayers please. The devil is using my broken heart and my love against me. I’m scared and I shouldn’t be I know. But apparently he’s using self doubt and fear to. Oh my gosh.
The good thing is that the Lord has shown you what the situation is. I’ll be praying for you and you pray too. “Resist the devil and he will flee from you.” (James 4:7) Another good verse in situations like this is I Corinthians 10:13.