One thing about Jesus, usually no one faults Him for being half-hearted. He was a sample in so many ways but one of those is the whole hearted, utter commitment He had to His calling. It says that in the Garden of Gethsemane, when He was praying just before Judas came with a band of men that, “He went a little further and fell on His face.” (Matthew 26:39)
And often, that’s what we have to do also. To truly follow Him now in our times in this world as it is, we have to “go a little further” and “fall on our face”. And both of those can be just plain hard to do, in fact, virtually impossible except by His indwelling grace.
We’re all prone to half heartedness, hesitation and just lazy selfishness of the worst kind. And it says of Jesus, “He was tempted in all points like as we are, yet without sin.” (Hebrews 4:15) Being a man and human like we are,
He was tempted by the sinful potential of the human nature He had, being born into this world like we have been.
But, He went a little further and fell on His face. Imagine. The very Son of God here on earth and praying so desperately that “being in an agony, He prayed more earnestly. And His sweat was as it were great drops of blood, falling down to the ground.” (Luke 22:44) It’s hard to even talk about it or think about it. How far He went for us, how complete and utter was His love as well as His obedience and commitment to the Father.
And actually there can be times in our lives when the Lord allows us to partake at least somewhat and to some degree in the sufferings that He suffered. God spoke through Jeremiah, saying, “And you shall seek me and find me when you shall search for me with all your heart.” (Jeremiah 29:13) These seem to be the very words in Scripture that the prophet Daniel read around 70 years later, which compelled him to pray one of the most earnest and desperate prayers in the Bible, found in Daniel chapter 9. And that prayer of Daniel led up to an answer from God which is perhaps the most important prophecy in the Bible, at the end of Daniel chapter 9.
But it was inspired and born in desperate prayer, of going a little further and falling on his face. It seems like most of the time this level and degree of desperation and utter pouring out of one’s heart is not what the Lord requires.
He hears our little prayers about our daily affairs and these reach His throne. God’s not deaf. You don’t have to yell at God.
And yet, in the case of Jesus and others also we can find in the Word, there were times of utter and abject desperation in prayer. And it was those which often preceded some of God’s greatest miracles. Like Jacob when he “wrestled with an angel.” (Genesis 32:24)
So it is for all of us. Our “flesh” certainly doesn’t want to go through with this. Our flesh and our worldly nature just want to rock along with things and to get by with as little effort as we can get away with. Only, what we find is that if we’re to not only believe in Jesus but to truly follow Him here in this world, then there do turn out to be times when we too, if we want to hold on to the Lord and to what He is leading us to do, will have to “go a little further and fall on our face.” Fall on our face in desperate prayer, in forsaking our own ideas, our own path and our own lives in order to go on in the life of discipleship that He is leading us in.
It can be really rough. Jesus said, “Whosoever shall fall on this stone shall be broken, but on whomsoever it shall fall, it shall grind him to powder.” (Matthew 21:44) Those of us who “fall on the stone” (Christ Jesus Himself, “the chief cornerstone” -Ephesians 2:20) will be broken, but in a good and Godly way.
King David said, “A broken and contrite heart oh God, you will not despise.” (Psalm 51:17) But so many cringe at this. Their pride does all it can to hold on to them and keep them back from the humbling and humiliation that is part of that breaking.
But Jesus Himself went through it. And you can read of the saints of God in His Word who were broken until there was virtually nothing left of them. And then God made them into “better vessels” (Jeremiah 18). Something they never could have been if they’d not gone to their own personal cross of loss, forsaking, humiliation and virtual death.
Often this also comes in our lives, and for some it may actually be a recurring process over the years. The -in a sense- ending of one life and beginning of another, even in this world. I’ve had a few of those, where I just sort of ceased being who I was and that nature I had sort of died in a very rough ending which turned out, as I just kept holding on through sometimes months of dire difficulty, into a new age or stage of my existence.
So, if you’re in any kind of place like that, remember what our Lord did. He went a little further and fell on His face. Almost all of us have times like this, our own personal Gethsemanes, followed by what seem to be our own personal crucifixions. But then, as we yield all to Him, also to our own personal resurrections, even all in this life.
And it should go without saying, all this is impossible without Him. He went before us in the most difficult task of all, to die on the cross and “give his life a ransom for many” (Matthew 20:28). Without Him we can do nothing. But He can be with us and lead us through these most difficult times in our lives into the light of a new day and almost like a resurrection to a new life, even as we are still in this one. God bless you and God help us all.

And for some of these horrific things we read about in the news every day, we often find that the perpetrator had been more and more on a negative, hopeless, often violent or evil line of thinking for a long time. And it’s just heartbreaking on so many levels when these things happen. We pity and grieve for the victims of these crimes but also for the families of the perpetrators who often say they had no idea their loved one was getting that way.
They say, “
It was at that stage, when my self confidence was utterly shattered and my mind almost gone, when I was face to face with my utter ignorance of the things of the heart and the affairs of eternity, that I was able to have the simple realization that there is a spiritual world, there is something called sin that was destroying me and that I desperately needed the help of the God of heaven and, yes, even of Jesus, the one I’d mocked so much.
James, the Lord’s brother said, “
encouraging, faith-building thoughts from His Word and truth. Actually memorizing Bible verses has been one of the most beneficial things I’ve ever done. Or singing songs of the Lord, “
Sometimes you have to keep up your resistance. When the devil tempted Jesus in the desert, he actually kept coming back at Jesus, even though Jesus did resist him. Same for you and me. But if you keep up your resistance, the enemy just has to flee. “
You do have power against it. Through Jesus. I’ve been there and done that. And through Him I’ve lived to tell you that you can come out of it too. Don’t be a victim of Satan, be a victorious victor through the Man who loves you and died for you and rose from the dead, Jesus.
Jesus said in the Sermon on the Mount, “
see the promises and provision of God utterly come through for you, even in some of the strangest and most trying times. I wrote about one experience I personally had like that when I first got married in “
To end with, here’s some good news. In the final days before the Lord’s return, we’re not really going to be able to serve Mammon the way most Christians do now. The Bible says that “
that they should feed her there
How very often the Lord commanded His people in one fashion or the other to “Go”. He told His disciples at the end of His time on earth that they should “
Then at the beginning of the Early Church, when Peter and John had been cast into prison, the angel freed them and then said what? Go on vacation? Go get a good job and settle down? No. He said, “
He told Peter years later when the Gentiles had come to his door in Caesarea, “
Even when Paul was in tremendous distress on his boat journey to Rome, when all seemed lost, he commanded his companions to “
I laughed and mocked at Christians for years and enjoyed getting in a rousing argument with them since I was convinced I’d always win. I wouldn’t listen to anyone and it took the totally undeserved mercy of God to save me. I was about to depart this life and go to hell before I saw that it was all real and put my will down on the side of the God of love and truth.
The best we can to is to try as much as possible to be a living sample of the Word. I think it was Dwight L. Moody who said something like, “
But it can be difficult. It’s likely you are already “familiar” with them. I wrote about this in “
The Lord does want you to witness to them, make no mistake about that. But it may be that He wants you to really upgrade your witness by including Him much more in it. If you’re also praying for the Lord’s leadings in how to witness to your loved ones, aim to be more sensitive to the leadings of the Lord, what to say as well as when to say it. The Lord can actually give you a nudge or impulse from Him of what to say and when to say it that will be far better than our sometimes vain wrangling.
But that was the verse I got today on this subject, “By long forbearing is a prince persuaded and a soft tongue breaketh the bone.” Sometimes even the toughest nuts are finally won by loving patience and a sample of humility and Godly softness rather than our possibly calloused hearts which have been hurt by the rejection they’ve experienced in standing up for Him. God help us to love people and to stand up for the Lord but with wisdom and by His Spirit.