On a Personal Note

Maybe I should write an update about my personal life. Lots has been happening. I last wrote a post about personal matters when I was in Brazil 2 years ago. Back then I was on a trip to Rio and Sao Paulo to do recordings in Portuguese for the Prophecies of Daniel videos. The first Portuguese video I did went on YouTube in the fall of 2019, a very fulfilling milestone for me in the work I was doing to get these into foreign languages.

But a funny thing happened. Around that time I felt prompted from the Lord that I should begin to turn back towards completing the Prophecies of Daniel series in English, doing videos in English on Daniel chapters 10 through 12. I had last done videos in English when I completed the second video on Daniel chapter 9, back 5 years earlier.

Then as I prepared to film the Daniel 10 video in early 2020, I began to go through what the whole world was experiencing at that time: the impact of the global Corona virus pandemic. Although some dear friends of mine got sick with it, even friends who lived very close to me, I’ve stayed healthy through it all and I personally know only a handful of friends who’ve died of the virus.

One thing the pandemic did was to increase the social isolation that I’d been experiencing for the last 5 years or so. And maybe I should tell you how that affected me as I don’t want to make this just about what’s been getting done but also what’s been happening in my life, even my personal life.

Through 2020 I was concentrated on getting the 4 videos done that would complete the Daniel series in English. I stayed very focused, possibly too focused on getting these done, including all the myriad details that go into each one. And the Lord blessedly raised up some dear friends in the Houston area who were able to do the filming on the videos, which they did well and the end product was coming out nice.

By the fall of 2020 I was filming on the third of the 4 videos that were to be done. But inside I felt like I was drying up. Between the Corona virus restrictions and my own super-focused work on finishing the English videos, I just felt like something, perhaps many things were missing in my life.

So one afternoon in Houston, I guess I sort of “had it out with the Lord”. I told Him I felt like I just couldn’t go on with the regime and pace that I’d been having and that I needed a more well-rounded life, more social interaction with real people, not just in cyberspace, and a better balance between work and all the other aspects of life.

It was almost like the Lord had been waiting for me to pray that prayer. Immediately I got the strong impression that I should finish the rest of the English videos on Daniel and then make a real effort to move back to Austin and get my own place. I’d been living rurally for nearly 5 years northeast of San Antonio with some dear friends, renting a room from them. But I had established very little in the way of a personal life there and what I did have still revolved around visiting Austin, well over an hour away up the freeway.

In January of 2021, the last video in the series, the Daniel 12 video, went up on YouTube. It was the longest one I’ve ever done and one I enjoyed very much. Then, right after that, I turned my attention towards what the Lord had pointed out to me was my next step: moving back to Austin and getting my own place there. And, truly amazingly, in 5 months time I was moving into this wonderful house that I now live in.

Even in normal times that would be pretty quick but any of you who are familiar with the Austin housing market right now know what a marvel that is. Prices in the area are so high now that it’s becoming a regularly reported subject in the news in the States. But the Lord raised up a very helpful real estate agent from the Sunday school group I’ve known in Austin for years and she really came through, helping me navigate all the hoops and hurdles.

It’s been incredible to get the place I have in the circumstances and conditions of the present. I don’t say “it’s just right” very often but I do think this is appropriate here. And just to show the Lord’s love in all this, the property is covered with trees and I’ve always liked gardening and things like that. Back in January I put a request out to friends for their prayers that the Lord would provide a good house for me; thanks so much for the many of you who prayed for this.

So, “the Lord has done great things for us, whereof we are glad.” (Psalm 126:3) Meanwhile, I haven’t visited my kids and grandkids in Scandinavia in 2 years, because of the pandemic. And efforts in recent days to see if I can now visit over there haven’t gone well, mainly because the travel restrictions to Norway are still very daunting and I’m literally not allowed to go there, even though I have been vaccinated. I’m hoping and praying that there will be a easing of the restrictions soon so that I can see all of them again, including a new grandson who I have never seen.

And I’m not really finished with the videos yet. I have 13 foreign language videos which were recorded in my travels abroad between 2015 and 2019 that have not been finalized. I still have a lot of work to do just to complete these ones that are already well along the way.

This move and recent events have all been a major “sea change” in my life, one that has been very needed and also rather surprising in how well it has all gone. Sometimes the Lord does “exceedingly abundantly, above all we ask or thing.” (Ephesians 3:20) I’ve got a lot to be thankful for.

Before the storm

Some of us are like water drops, before the storm. We’ve been in storms before. Now, we’re just floating around, tiny droplets who before were parts of mighty storms. But only God can do it. Storms, when they’re from God, are good. They bring rain and wind, they clear the air and actually shake things up, something that’s so often needed.

Then what? The storm passes and the clouds recede. Often calm returns. I don’t know if water drops have thoughts like this, I suppose they don’t.

But maybe somewhere someone wants to be part of a storm again. They have the vision for it; they feel it’s what they’re created for. The calm and mundane bore them and almost get on their nerves. They long to be part of the storm, part of the change, part of the shake-up, part of the revelation and part of the exposure of drooping, languid regularity that so often leads to lethargy and lassitude.

That’s how I am at least. I’ve been a part of storms all my life, often some really big ones. It was a storm of God that brought me to Jesus, the “Jesus movement” that was so powerful when I was in university and was an integral part of how I came to salvation.

I’ve seen the good they do, the stupor they shock, the indifferent indolence they overcome. “The Lord has his way in the whirl wind and the storm.” (Nahum 1:3) I wrote a blog article about that verse after a tornado passed directly over my parents’ house where I was a few years ago. You can read about that here.

But if we just go around trying to be storms, we’ll make a fool of ourselves and amount to nothing. The Lord has to do it, we can’t do it ourselves. He has to stir up the wind, He has to define and ordain the times.

Our part is to be in the right place, at the right time, in His will. Then we’ll be available, ready and willing when the circumstances are right and the Lord brings the storm. Perhaps, meanwhile, we’ll just be part of some scattered showers here and there. Normal little rains are also very needed and they are more prevalent than storms.

So, like the little local rains, we Christian water molecules will keep being part of the rain. “You, Lord, did send a plentiful rain whereby you did strengthen your inheritance, when it was weary.” (Psalm 68:9) The best ability is availability. Maybe we won’t right now be part of a storm but we can at least be available to be the rain. We can witness the Lord’s truth and love to individuals here and there, the ones who will hear it and even those who don’t.

But if you’re like me, you long for the storm, to be a part of something that’s bringing major change, ordained by the hand of God, that really stirs things up, that brings clarity like lightning does on a dark night.

The lightning of God strikes, illuminating all around it, profound, direct, unstoppable, unquestionable. And we little droplets of the waters of God are swept up in the mighty acts of God that move across the nations, affecting all before it and bringing the mind of God again to this befuddled world.

But God has His times. Sometimes the best is to just keep looking to Him, looking for opportunities, being faithful in season and out of season. Let’s face it, that’s how it has been for most Christians, down through the centuries. They haven’t been a part of the storms some of us have. They “despised not the day of small things.” (Zachariah 4:10) They “did what they could.” (Mark 14:8)

Nevertheless, we can pray. We can hope and look to the Lord that He will yet send another storm. Some of us feel that this is what we are ordained for, this is what we find our destiny in. As it was said to Esther in the Bible, “You are come into the kingdom for such a time as this.” (Esther 4:14)

But we are not the generals, we are not the Lord of hosts, the captain of the armies of God. We are just His soldiers who’ve fought for Him in campaigns in years past, having seen His mighty hand, having seen His mighty victories and rejoiced in the amazing light and clarity that was a part of those storms, those battles. United with other droplets, we are part of something greater, used of God and rising above to be a part of that moment when God is sweeping the world with His power, might, truth and love.

Maybe that will never happen again. Maybe we’ll just continue to be part of the showers that fall locally from time to time. Or just be the dew of the morning. And if that is His will, then His will be done.

But for me at least, I hope there will be another storm. I hope the Lord will bring the elements together, bring the wind, bring the magnitude of truth that He pours out in the times of mighty change that comes with His storms. And I pray that I and my many friends who’ve been a part of the storms of God in the past will yet again be swept up by His mighty will to bring refreshing, truth and change to this deeply confused and bewildered present world.

Not old-old

My mom said to  me, “I’m old. But I’m not old-old.” She was in her 80’s at the time. That always struck me as an interesting viewpoint. Personally, I can’t really consider myself middle-aged any more. But I certainly don’t consider myself “old-old”.

I heard someone say, “You’re as old as your last revolution.” A similar thought is what was said about some people, that they “died at 30, were buried at 60.” They quit at 30 but didn’t die till 60.

However, when you have the Lord, when you have a vision, a purpose and a desire to keep alive so that you can continue to do something meaningful with you your life, somehow the Lord often comes through, sustains you and gives you a continuation of meaningful life beyond what you might otherwise have had if you’d lost the vision, lost a purpose or a zest for living and a desire for continuing to live for the Lord and others.

Way back in the 1970’s, there was some current teenage Asian guru who was quoted as saying, “We’re all old; we can die tomorrow.” Well, he was right about that. I’ve had several very dear friends pass on to their reward in recent times and it’s an emotion without name to ponder those dear friends who so recently were here and are now no longer with us.

Still, we are here. Still, there is a reason to stay alive, if nothing else to help others, to alleviate in whatever way we can the suffering that’s the plight of so many and to share the love of God with the world. I’ve written a number of articles somewhat on this subject in the past. I wrote about Solomon, king of Israel, who evidently had fallen away from God’s highest and best but he still had the vision to continue on in his calling and ministry. I wrote about that in “Still”.

Or there was Ruth in the Bible, returning to her own land in her old age, evidently in utter defeat and failure. But unknown to her, the most significant portion of her life was still ahead. I wrote about that in “So You Had To Go Home”.

One of the most famous series of movies ever had the hero, Obi Wan Kenobi, a washed up elderly Jedi living off in his cave, apparently beyond his time and his portion in life. But the best was yet to come. I wrote about that in “Obi wan Kenobi in his cave”.

They say, “Youth is wasted on the wrong people”, ha! Well, I don’t know. If you can find a place in time where you have the power and energy of youth but the wisdom, focus and balance of full adulthood, you’ve then come to a good place.

To be honest, my present early 70’s are ok. I have friends who’ve gone on to be with the Lord. But He’s allowed me to still be here for now. And He’s given me a vision and a sense of purpose that compels me to do what I can each day to put in a full day’s work for Him and others.

I filled out some forms recently and I was asked “Are you retired?” Ha! I almost laughed. In one way, maybe technically I’m retired. But in another way, I am utterly not retired. The Bible says, “There is no discharge in this war.” (Ecclesiastes 8:8) For those serving the Lord, on the wall of His will, keeping the faith and the vision, I don’t think there’s much in the way of retirement. Why should we? The need is still there, people are dying in despair and without God. How can we do less than continue to do our best for Him?

Of course there are those who are bed-ridden and in their final months, weeks and days. But there’s a wonderful thing about the life of faith and service for the Lord: as far as I can see, it’s not something you retire from, like some secular, worldly job.

It’s like if you suddenly got a call from your uncle or grandfather. You were shocked to hear that he was at 21,000 feet on a climb of Mount Everest. “Grandpa! Grandpa! Are you ok?!”, you said.

You had a good connection and could hear him clearly, “Yes, I’m fine. Things are good.

So you said, “Grandpa, what’s it like?!

He replied, “It’s so clear, a little cold but the air is amazing and I can see so far. We’ve established a camp and plan to push for the summit in the next days. It’s exhilarating.

Maybe that’s not a perfect example but possibly that’s how it can and should be. Life is like a mountain climb and as we get closer to the summit, the view is better, the air is purer and many things fade into lesser meaning. I may not be that far along yet. But I’m just trying to tell you that it’s not so bad and there’s still an alive-ness that keeps kicking and the Lord really does keep things going.

Conflicting currents and viewpoints

Six years ago I was told, “By 2020, Texas will be uninhabitable. The temperature will reach 120 degrees (50° Centigrade) each summer. Huge population migrations will happen as a result.” A dear friend with strong environmentalist views told me this.

Then last November I had a clash with a missionary friend who I’ve known for decades.  He was passionate about the need for assault rifles with large cartridges to hold dozens of bullets. And he was emphatic that the Corona virus vaccine would be the literal fulfillment of “the Mark of the Beast”, spoken of in the book of Revelation chapter 13.

Many were listening to him right then and I felt I had to speak what I felt. I told him I didn’t believe the corona virus vaccine was the fulfillment of the Mark of the Beast. It was unpleasant to be so frank with a good friend but I knew I needed to share what I believed was the truth. I asked him then about the American national election that was happening in a week, what did he see would be happening? With utter conviction he said that Donald Trump would be reelected as President and that the Democrats would then start prolonged, violent civil unrest throughout the USA because of it.

These people are dear to me and I want to stay friends with them. The Bible says, “If it be possible, as much as lies within you, live peaceably with all men”. (Romans 12:18) But other verses come into play and, reluctantly and with Godly caution, they must be considered at times. Jude said that there was a time when we need to “earnestly contend for the faith” (Jude 1:3). Paul said “The servant of the Lord must not strive but be gentle unto all men,.. in meekness instructing those who oppose themselves …” (II Timothy 2:24-25).

Truthfully I think I can say I’ve seldom ever seen as much division and disunity among both Christians and people in general here in America. It’s particularly disheartening to have such division with close friends who I want so much to be of the same mind with. But often it’s just not how it is now.

I feel the danger is that there’s an incredible pull towards extremist views now that are not substantiated by the fundamentals of Christianity. Multitudes of Christians are being drawn into powerful vortexes of radical, fringe views that masquerade as Christian, or scientific, or with some supposed high ethical stand that all true Christians are seemingly compelled to follow.

I’ve had to take measures to simply hold on to the fundamental truths and basics of the Word of God that has sustained me through the last 50+ years. No matter how seemingly Christian, supposedly scientific or utterly substantiated some current view is that so many are being swept up in, I’ve had to exercise my spiritual discernment to try to sense the essence of some things and to ascertain what truth they may have, if any.

My friend told me 6 years ago that Texas would be uninhabitable by 2020. That wasn’t true, that didn’t happen. On the other hand, some serious weather events have happened here, both extreme droughts and in the recent winter extreme freezes. In driving through Texas now, I’ve never seen so many trees that have died of drought or prolonged frost. My friend’s timing may have been off. But it’s hard to not see that something is happening with the climate and the weather.

The song from the Buffalo Springfield back in the 1960’s said, “Something’s happening here. But what it is ain’t exactly clear..”. That well describes things currently. What to do? For me, I’m convinced that I can and should hold on the basics of God’s Word that have proven true for the people of faith for thousands of year. I may not have full understanding of all that’s taking place right now. In spite of that, I have in my grasp the fundamentals that God has given His people in His Word that will provide light and guidance in any time, no matter how confusing or unprecedented.

There are serious, extremist views coming at all of us from both “the Left” and “the Right”, not to mention ceaseless modern heresies Driving-in-fogand multiple temptations thrown at us from the prince of this world. Sometimes we don’t know how to go forward. But if nothing else, we can hold on to the eternal truths we already know, until a time that always comes when the fog clears and directions and truths become more evident so that we can better understand our surroundings and which way we should go forward.

 

 

Did Jesus ever have seconds?

Did Jesus ever have seconds? Did he taste something really good and decide to have a little more? Would that have been sin on the part of the Savior? I was thinking about that tonight as I had a glass of wine and a little snack of nuts. Did Jesus ever do that? Would that have been a sin for the Son of God?

Personally, I  think the answer to that is no, it would not have been a sin. And yes, at least perhaps He had seconds sometimes. The Bible says “he gives us richly all things to enjoy.” (I Timothy 6:17) In moderation, the pleasures of this life are a gift of God if we partake of them in Him and keep our eyes on Him, giving Him thanks in all things.

As you may know, this has been a raging religious controversy for around 2000 years. And to this day there are multitudes of Christians who will vehemently disagree with what I’ve written here. “Of course Jesus didn’t have seconds!!”, they will say.

But I just don’t think the Son of Man was some gaunt, austere, esthetic religionist. If He was, then why did His accusers call Him “a gluttonous man and a wine bibber”? (Luke 7:34) I think the Lord was the most real, authentic, alive human being that ever walked the earth. “Yet without sin.” (Hebrews 4:15)

But what may surprise some people is what God considers “without sin”, when it is done with faith in Him. “Happy is he that condemns not himself in that thing which he allows.” (Romans 14:22)

Of course, in the big picture, the main thing isn’t whether you have seconds or you don’t but whether you’re fully set on a life of faith, obedience and service to Him. The Lord said, “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God… and all these things shall be added unto you.” (Matthew 6:33)

“Even seconds, Lord? If I’m serving you, seeking first Your kingdom and following You, then will You allow me to have seconds on peanuts or almonds, Lord?”

What do you think the Lord would say to that? Well, it depends a lot on what kind of religious teachings you’ve been brought up with. For most people, their religious teachings will virtually never challenge them or lead them to go fully into Christian discipleship. Going to church on Sunday and supporting the correct political party is about the outer limits of Christianity for so many millions, sadly.

But for those who are seeking first His kingdom, laying down their lives for the brethren, feeding God’s sheep and following the Lord as much as they can, do you really think it would be a sin to have seconds?

And, you know? A lot of people will instinctively say yes to that question. Perhaps because their whole perspective on Christianity is based around what they are not supposed to do, rather than what they are supposed to do.

But, admittedly, with the overwhelming weakness of human nature, the deal is that so many of us can’t really handle the freedom of the Lord. “Seconds? We can have seconds?” And more than a few will therefore then have seconds, thirds and fourths.

The Lord can give us spiritual brakes so that we have the power to “keep under our body and bring it unto subjection”. (I Corinthians 9:27) But many Christians have not come to that place. So the most basic freedoms in the Lord that He wants to give us and can give us are just beyond our maturity. Therefore we have to be hedged in on every side since we have not accessed the powers of the Lord in the Spirit to know how to partake of the blessings of this life, without being overwhelmed by them.

Am I saying that you should have seconds because perhaps the Lord did? I don’t know. In one place the Lord said, “According to your faith be it unto you.” Matthew 9:29. “Have you faith? It is good neither to eat bread or drink [or have seconds] whereby your brother is offended. And he that eateth [seconds] is damned if he eat, if he eat ether not of faith. For whatsoever is not of faith is sin.” (Romans 14:21-23)

Personally I believe that the Lord Jesus Christ had the faith to eat seconds. But sadly I’m not so sure that the majority of Christians today have the same faith, because of the weakness of their faith and the teachings they have received.

Lord help us all to grow in Him, not just so we can have faith for seconds but that we can come to the full stature of Christian discipleship and maturity where the question of having seconds on peanuts is totally minor in our eyes, since we are filled with the vision of reaching the world for Him, taking up our cross daily to follow Him in this life and loving Him with all our hearts.

 

 

Fog

Winston Churchill, writing about 1940 said, “Although it was a fine September, I was frightened of the fog.” Why? Because he knew that the fog was the best cover the enemy could have for a German invasion of Britain at that time. And that’s in many ways where we are now: in a fog.

Admittedly, some think they are seeing utterly clearly and can emphatically tell you who the good guys are and who are the bad. But sometimes, the wrong people have the right message and the right people have the wrong message. It’s rather like great confusion.

Have you ever looked up at the sky and seen some clouds going one direction but others going another at the same time? In one place in the Bible it says, “The winds were contrary.” (Acts 27:4) A bit like it is now, it seems to me. And it’s the easiest time for the enemy to invade the land or our own hearts: when we are in a fog and can’t really see as clearly many things that seemed clear not so long ago.

It’s like that to some degree for me now and perhaps for many people. A dear friend said something to me a few days ago that was profound, although he didn’t probably intend it that way. He simply said that he was looking at individual issues rather than choosing one side or the other in the big picture.

I think that might hold a lot of wisdom for the Christian people of faith right now. For me it’s been a help. If I look at individual issues affecting the world right now, I can feel a leading of the Lord on them, if I just look at them one at a time. But forming some composite big picture, some “unified field” as they say in the realm of physics, I’m not really able to do that right now.

And maybe as a Christian disciple, I don’t need to. Maybe I don’t need to identify with the various yardsticks that are so prevalent and demanding right now. No, I don’t at all swear allegiance to one political party or the other, “left” or “right”. I just feel vehemently that my loyalty and allegiance should continue to be to the Son of God Who will ultimately return to establish the Kingdom of God on earth, as He clearly said He would.

Should I move away from that? Should any of us come off the wall of Christian discipleship to become embroiled with “the course of this world” and “the affairs of this life”?  (Ephesians 2:2, II Tim. 2:4) No matter how loud the clamor is between one worldly faction and the other right now?

I just can’t, or at least shouldn’t. But there is a strong pull and I do have long-time Christian disciple friends who’ve now engaged themselves almost totally within those controversies and have, in so doing, moved away from their original calling to an allegiance with Christ and His service within this present evil world.

But the enemy can attack most easily when there is a fog. That may be why Paul said, “God is not the author of confusion but of peace.” (I Corinthians 14:33) If I let present contrary winds and an inability to as easily discern things as it seemed possible in the past, then I can allow that wedge to be a device of the enemy to move in heavily, as he always attempts to do, and to overwhelm me with uncertainty, perplexity and confusion. Before you know it, as Churchill feared the Germans would do in 1940, the enemy is landing troops upon your land and is advancing in a blitzkrieg war while you pause in perplexity, with your guard dropped.

The-fight-of-faithThe solution? Remain vigilant. “Strengthen the things that remain.”  (Revelation 3:2) “Be sober, be vigilant, for your adversary the devil as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour.” (I Peter 5:8)

Having perfect understanding and being able to see clearly the horizon in every direction is not guaranteed for Christian discipleship. Sometimes we simply don’t have that. We have to “walk by faith and not by sight.” (I Corinthians 5:8) But the enemy is always there to cast fiery darts into our hearts and minds, sowing fear, uncertainty, questions and doing all he can to reverse the polarity so that he can launch an attack on God’s homeland, which is our souls, especially when the overall outlook seems foggy.

I’ll have to admit, it has bothered me that I have not been able to feel I see things as clearly as I did until very recently. But on the other hand, I have more than enough of the Lord’s grace to handle all that is before me on the short term. So while the fog clears, I’m going to concentrate on the short term goals and vision which is still just fine. And perhaps before long, other things will become clearer. Still, I am going to remain vigilant against the attacks of the enemy who has already tried to attack me in this present somewhat foggy time.

The enemy is always threatening, broadcasting his woes and contrary confusion, all the much more when it is foggy. But the Lord’s directional systems still work just as well in fog as they do in clear skies.  Meanwhile, when it comes to the enemy of our souls, “We are not ignorant of his devices.” (II Corinthians 2:11)

Weighed in the balances

It can be a frightening thing to be weighed in the balances. We are faced with a sudden accounting of our lives and decision, at times in our lives. That’s what is happening to the Christian leadership of Texas right now.

The fearsome polar vortex that engulfed Texas a few days ago pushed the state’s power grid here far beyond what it was able to bear. Temperatures plunged to almost unprecedented lows across the state and snow remained on the ground in central Texas longer than it ever has before. Eight million people in Texas lost their electricity, many of them for days. Electricity was off across Austin for around 2 days. Water was off for there around 4 days.

The responsibility for this is all the full domain of Christian Texas leadership. So although it is primarily a political matter, it also pertains to the character and nature of our Texas leadership as they have always maintained their Christian identity and stature. And there’s the dilemma. In the political realm, you basically never admit your mistakes. You come back hard and throw the guilt on your political enemies. That’s always the way of the world.

But if you are a Christian, Christ’s call to admit when you’re wrong, to apologize and make restitution cannot be ignored since it’s one of the most fundamental tenets of Christianity.

So the Christian leadership of the government of Texas is really under the microscope and being brought before the court of the people, if not the court of God. Sadly, one of the greatest characterizations of the people of Texas is (supposedly at least) their pride. Pride is extolled as a virtue here and an absolute. But any Christian who has studied their Bible knows that there is not a single verse in the Bible, cover to cover, that exalts pride in any way.

From all we can see, the state government of Texas was utterly unprepared for the crisis that hit it last week and that is still going on in many ways. But there is so much misinformation flooding cyberspace at this time to promote right or left wing agendas that it becomes all the more difficult to ascertain any element of objective truth and facts in these times.

And millions of people locally are still coming out of the experience and seeing what they have to do to repair their broken water pipes and find a way to pay for their skyrocketing electric bills. All of which comes back to the leadership of the state of Texas at this time and their policies concerning utilities that have been implemented here over the last 10 or 20 years.

This isn’t fake news. This is not a partisan take on what happened. I’m not a politician or a journalist, representing either right wing or left wing views. But I am interested, as a Christian and a citizen of Texas, as to how our leadership, all devout Christians, respond at this time. From all I know, the Christian thing to do is to admit their mistakes, to apologize to the State for the impact their policies have had on this disaster, and to try to make restitution.

But it may not at all be that easy. The challenge will be the massive ideological struggle that will go on in the hearts and minds of our Texas Christian leadership. Because the political ideology that they have followed is what has set up the infrastructure here in such a way that profit has been the primary driving impetus, rather than to serve the people of Texas. And to go against that principle of profit will be almost impossible, regardless of what their Christian convictions and soul may be telling them.

It’s a crisis time in Texas in more ways than one. They even have a modern, somewhat mocking phrase for times like this. They actually call it a “come to Jesus moment”. Not that they really do that at all. But the idea is that it’s a real moment of accountability, of exposure where reality is being exposed and you, the major leaders of a state, nation or multinational business, are exposed and have to give a clear and visible accounting of yourself. Perhaps a poignant point Jesus made was when He summed up things in the simple words, “You cannot serve God and Mammon.” (Matthew 6:24)

It all very much bears watching. Expect a lot of smoke and mirrors. Expect there be a change of the subject, red herrings being thrown in every direction and a mighty shifting of the blame onto all the usual suspects that the right/left paradigm always throws up at us. Sadly, so many in American have bought into this ideological conflict that we’ve evidently come to where truth, raw and real truth in real time, doesn’t matter that much anymore to so many.

But people died here in Texas last week. Most of my friends went without electricity and water for days. So many major grocery stores for the second time in less than a year were denuded of food and necessities and panic buying went on again. As I wrote in another article (“Judgment must begin at the house of God”), in a state as Christian as this one, as led by Christians as this one is, it’s truly a time of sifting and accountability for the Godly leadership of Texas.

May the Lord help them to come down on His side, even if that means that pride is humbled and political struggle is ignored in order to measure up to greater truths and allegiances that we all have in the sight of the dear Lord God.

Judgment begins at the house of God

The Bible says, “Judgment must begin at the house of God”. (I Peter 4:17) What does that mean? God holds the standard the highest for those who proclaim that they are His. It’s like how Jesus castigated the Pharisees rather than the drunks. In fact He told the self-righteous religious leaders of His day, “The tax collectors and harlots enter into the kingdom of God before you.” (Matthew 21:31) The same principle that Jesus espoused 2000 years ago is still valid today.

The recent pandemic that’s swept America, as well as the world, had a major, transformative effect on the elections of 2020 in the USA. The national government here was seen by many to be aloof and distracted by other things as the Corona virus hit America as hard as any disease has in the last 100 years.

Was this an example of judgment beginning at the house of God? Well, it sure had an effect on the elections last November. And America voted for a new administration and government which it was hoped would take more action and really get to grips with this vast, deadly emergency that has virtually overwhelmed the country.

And now this major historic cold and snow that has just hit here in Texas has had a similar effect. Both the cold in Texas and the Corona virus nationally have been ”natural disasters”, as we call them. Insurance companies actually call them, “acts of God”. But judgment must begin at the house of God. The Lord has ways to intervene in the affairs of humanity, even in our times. And thank God for that.

The Lord has always had ways to bring judgment first upon His own people, rather than on the so-called worldly or the unsaved. That’s why, in God’s eyes, His own saved Christians are so much more accountable than are the unsaved worldly who don’t know His Word or ways.

I often feel that it is a pitiful, fearful time for America. Will they be able to muddle through for a few more years, as they have for so long? Maybe; they’ve gone on a long time, coasting on the momentum of the righteousness of former generations. But, like Israel of old, there comes  time when God requires an accounting. It says in the Bible, “In those days the Lord began to cut Israel short”. (II Kings 10:32) I fear this is now happening to America as well.

The Lord has consistently held a higher standard for His own people than He does for the ignorant and unsaved of this world. But you seldom hear this message from the pulpit here or much less from the opportunistic politicos of our times.

A former US President from Texas once talked about “compassionate conservatism”. I wish I could say I have seen more of that here. In Texas there is a predominance of conservatives; but each of us will have to answer to God if we have truly been compassionate. I could go off on a tangent here, trying to apportion blame and take sides. But instead, maybe I’ll just try to keep seeing what the Lord is doing. I will add that I have certainly known personally some very humble and compassionate conservative Christians here in Texas.

The Lord brings crisis into our lives. He can, in His love and nurturing of us, even expose our sins, both to individuals and to nations. And almost no one really ever likes that, individually or nationally. Still, the Lord does it to purge and purify and to try to bring us out of “the sins that so easily beset us.” (Hebrews 12:1)

JobAnd how we react to that, individually or nationally, will really tell the tale of how our life goes. Almost everyone is very prone to “justifying themselves” (Luke 10:29). I wrote a blog article about justifying yourself which can be found here.

But God’s hope must be that, individually and nationally, we won’t justify ourselves and thwart the working of God in our lives. Instead, we will see the hand of God working when events that He sends expose our unpreparedness, our aloofness, our pride and arrogance. Then the hope must be that we will see it, acknowledge it, repent of it and be the better for the judgment the Lord sometimes brings. So often, it really comes down to that.

How’s this all going to end? Will the leadership of Texas confess their mistakes, ask for forgiveness and make the changes that are so desperately needed? We can hope so. Virtually every major leader in Texas is strongly a Christian conservative. May the Lord have mercy upon us all. May we all, individually and nationally, see the chastening, purifying hand of God in our lives.

Now no chastening for the present seems to be joyous, but grievous. Nevertheless afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to them which are exercised thereby.”  (Hebrews 12:11)

Insufficient in prayer

I was thinking tonight about how God has been really good to me. So much so that I can’t really express it or find the words. Sometimes you can’t equal with your words of thankfulness the measure of the abundant grace that the Lord has bestowed upon you. Words fail you. But the funny thing is for me, in earlier years, before I came to the Lord and salvation, I went through a time of horror and depravity. And back then words failed me to describe my experiences as they do again now, but at the opposite end of the scale

When I was university I was swept up in a near death experience that took place in the realm of darkness, the spiritual world but without Christ and God. Afterwards it was close to impossible to find words to describe that experience and those things. At the time I didn’t really have any idea what was happening to me or why.

I just knew something was exceedingly wrong and that it was my fault. I knew that word back then, “fault”, but I didn’t really know or accept the word “sin”. Then gradually, as I came through and out of it all, I found the vocabulary in the Bible that described the experiences and grapplings I’d had in the realm of darkness.

By the love of God I had been “delivered from the power of darkness and translated into the kingdom of His dear Son” (Colossians 1:13). Still, I could hardly talk about what I’d gone through. Now, decades later, I again have faced an inadequacy to put into words what is in my heart, but on the opposite side of the spectrum. He has blessed me, “above all I could ask or think” (Ephesians 3:20) so that my feeble attempts to thank Him and to appreciate His abundant blessings seem utterly inadequate to do the subject justice.

So I just have to trust the Lord. The Lord knows what He has done. The Lord knows how He has worked in my life. Hopefully He is pleased that I at least realize and know it somewhat and understand it to some degree. How can we be equal to the magnitude of God? We can’t. It reminds me of what I wrote a few years ago about “Thimbles”. I was struck with my inadequacy to respond to the vastness of God, like having a thimble on the beach to measure the ocean before me.

But I try to praise and thank the Lord for what He has done in my life. So many things have happened that I just know are the Lord, His plan and pre-vision and pro-vision. The Lord can make something out of nothing and actually that’s the way He usually works. He has to make you utterly nothing and so that you know it. And then He can begin to put you back together “a better vessel” (Jeremiah 18:1-4).

You may find yourself speechless, trying to find words to thank the Lord with when it all comes so short of describing the magnity of what He’s done in your life. Maybe that’s not where you are at right now. Maybe you are really going through trails and testings and “contradictions of sinners against yourself” (Hebrews 12:3), like what happened to Jesus. But as each of us keep holding on, the Lord can bring us into a fair haven. (Psalm 107:30)  A verse that often speaks to me is how He can “restore the years that the cankerworm has eaten.” (Joel 2:25) Seemingly years of wasted and fruitless existence when you longed to have a purpose and a meaningful life. But He can restore.

We don’t have to be eloquent when it comes to our prayers. Just honest, sincere and real. Our words are us and we are just little people trying to speak to the King of kings and Lord of lords. So we should just speak from our heart, even if it all seems to be so insufficient to express how we feel or how God has dealt with us. “Pour out your heart before Him”, as King David said. (Psalm 62:8)

We are not sufficient for these things,” (II Corinthians 2:16). Paul knew it was all far beyond him what the Lord was doing in his life and in the lives of others. But he just kept the faith and kept following, even if it got to where it was beyond what he could ask or understand or comprehend.

Should we change?

Should we change? Big question. It depends. Does God change? He actually answered that. “I am the Lord, I change not.” (Malachi 3:6) But when we search the Scriptures, we see examples where the Lord’s way of dealing with His people changed over the centuries. “The word of God was precious in those days, there was no open vision.” (I Samuel 3:1) But then in later centuries there came a time and age of prophets raised up by the Lord who received visions.

Jesus seemed to advocate change. His original message from the beginning was a commandment to change.Repent, for the Kingdom of God is at hand.” (Matthew 4:17) Repent, change, have a transformation or even more, be transformed by the power of God.

I guess it depends on what you are changing. There’s a time to not change. John the Beloved disciple said, “Let that therefore abide in your which you have heard from the beginning. If that which you have heard from the beginning shall remain in you, you also shall continue in the Son and in the Father.” (I John 2:24)

But, equally and on the other side, Jesus seemed to strongly advocate change.  When His disciples asked Him why the disciples of John fasted but they didn’t, He said, “No man having drunk old wine straightway desires the new for he says the old is better.” (Luke 5:39) His teaching was “new wine” but some people, very religious, were stuck back with the old wine and just couldn’t get on board with the new.

So it seems like we are supposed to do both: at times hold on to the old and at other times break away and follow the new. Solomon wrote, “Destroy not the ancient landmark which your fathers have set up.” (Proverbs 22:28) Seems like we are supposed to hold on to the original foundations we receive from our beginnings.

But other times we are supposed to forget the past and press on to that which is before. (Philippians 3:14) So the only way this will make sense is through the mind of Christ in which these things don’t contradict themselves at all. Let go of the ways the Lord is no longer leading in. And hold on and seek the new ways God has for us now in these times. That’s been the primary procedure and secret of truly following God and abiding in Him for 4000 years or more.

And, without complicating things, we could look briefly at another kind of change. Definitely the wrong one. Paul spoke of this when he said of his formerly loyal helper and companion, “Demas has forsaken me, having loved this present world.” (II Timothy 4:10) Yes, some sadly (many even in these present times) make a change for the worse. They put their hand to the plow and look back. In Demas’s case they go back, they forsake their calling for “this present evil world” (Galatians 1:4).

We have to follow God. What is He leading, saying and doing now? It actually won’t contradict what He has said before but at the same time He is fully able to lead us in some shocking and unusually ways which have often confounded His dearest followers. The Bible is full of times where God’s greats were stunned by His radical ways and often they were barely able to keep up with the Almighty.

We think of God as “the Ancient of Days” (Daniel 7:9) which is true. But at the same time He is the most present and future entity we could ever encounter. Only God is way out there in front and knows what’s going to happen and is able to lead us and guide us and show us what to do.

Sometimes we need to hold on and sometimes we need to let go. If you put both of those in their right context, both are right. Let go of your old ways of doing things, your old procedures that worked years ago and hold on to what the Lord has for now, what works for today, what He is seeing the need for today. And you’ll find that probably He has actually done it before at some time, only now evidently He is going to pull it out of His bag of tricks again as it’s what’s best for theses time.

Only in the mind and wisdom of God can these two things be compatible and true at the same time. We need to change and not change. We need to be God’s new bottles, desiring the new wine of His radical ways and means to meet the challenges of right now and the future to come.

But also, equally and at the same time, we need to continue to be so rooted and grounded in the eternal truths of God that we in no way abandon the eternal foundation of faith and truth that has been the pillar and groundwork of all we’ve ever believed in.

Contradiction? Impossible to reconcile the two? Not in the Lord at all. But only with the mind of Christ which He gives us. Change and remain the same. Forge forward as we are led by the Spirit of God into greater victories of souls won and the sheep of God established in the faith. But at the same time, remain unmoved, rooted and established in the faith. Only in the heavenly minded can these things make sense and be the beacon for us that the Lord wants them to be.